`__welcum to my life ;;

*love *

* kind *

* patient *

* trusts *

* protects *

* hopes *

* perseveres *

Child of God

- elisa.eli.sparky.ALEX
- 25th may 91
- dance
- ex-sacian
- ahs.1c`o4
- ahs.2c`05
- debate??
- BMC woosh!
- god's
- graci0usluv@hotmail.com ppl always have problems with the 'o' being a zero..

__wisHLisT+``

*paperchase travel journal!!
*paperchase notebook
*earrings
*illusion play cards from borders
*growth of debate club
*closer walk with god

__mOrE..

i like..

..running (though i'm not all that fast)
..smsing
..my star earrings.. ..my glasses..haha.. ..taking neos??
..MRS MARY CHAN.. i find her pretty amusing.. i like ms chan too.. nice teacher.. not suanning.
..tea .. taking pics and vids of people.. i dislike(can't say hate).. = superficial people.. - ppl who are TOO much like me. - jerks who make other ppl look bad and only themselves look good.. - exams - exams results i don't UNDERSTAND..

..ppl who act cute
..ppl who act smart
..ppl who talk at wrong times
..ppl who would just go all out of their way for their fave singer/actor etc..
cause if they would go chase those normal people with some special talent,
then i don't see why they are not chasing tim koh.. singer/composer/bowling&badminton player
..how my science teacher can remember all the body parts and chemical equations..
..how anyone could just hop from one relationship to another..so cheap..(judging... bleh)

yeah.. guess that's all i can think of now!

thankew god for blessing me with
...great teachers like ms chan and MRT(mrs rita teo..)
...great neighbours like wenkai, shuqi and liqin..
...super old friends like bry
...old friends like xue and vett..
...friends who are always there to listen like ching and fruit
...caring friends like fruit, joween and amanda
...extra lame and funny and what not friends like kor kor, yuelong, tsze deng, johannes
...friends who keep me company like rong xuan, nat, rach, fruit and jo
...people whom i never expected to meet like clip mao and pin mao..
...unique frens like jon and jas and james(wha.. all j)..
...nice people like huijuan, beatrice, hang hang, xia xue, xiao hua!, jot, wee hoe and rocket(haha..!!), jake, hui ling, gewn and the list goes on.. so many nice people around!
...those people who've let me WAY down.. like *** ****.. haha.. god, you know who i'm talking about..
...people who help me grow.. like.. jun hao...vette too(in a good way of course)
...people like sare who indirectly make me stronger as well.. ...mummy cause she's always there and everything.. and she's like.. dunno.. the BEST mom anyone could get!
...daddy too although sometimes he can be unreasonable.. and sometimes he does certain things for me that i forget to appreciate..
...caleb although he irritates me to the bones sometimes but he's always there for me to experiment with his hair..heez!
...and the many other people you've placed around me who i've not mentioned as the list is endless cause lord, i thank you for everyone..
amen.
last updated [20.10.2005]

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``~[ Thursday, March 17, 2005]~ ^

rush of adrenalin

i entered your blog
saw that beautiful picture

hey people. third post today.

fingers are cold

could feel the adrenalin rush into my bloodstream

making my heart pump faster
and faster

juz called mummy-loves-you
and all i could say was
juz words filled with anger
disguised by the surprised-but-not-angry tone
thanks for talking to me

expletives just shot out on to the keyboard

never felt so bad before

eeew.

i think i really suck.
i mean like.
sigh.
i just feel rotten.

haha.

lord..please forgive me.. i'm feeling so angry right now. i can't believe that happened la. i can't believe that could actually happen to me. lord.. are you really trying to test me? i have so many questions us here in my stupid little head. it's not like homework where i can juz copy the answers off a book, i don't even know where and how to answer these questions. please help me god, to take away the hatred from me and teach me to love. i have no reason to hurt anyone juz because he or she has angered me god cause i know that you'll vindicate me just as you have done. help me shift focus and give me the discipline to do my qt everyday whether at night or early in the morning lord. i want to enjoy the time spent with you and not make it a routine or a rule that i have to follow.
in jesus' name i pray
amen.

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