i'm free!

hello once again!
haha.. such a cheery greeting rite?
that's cause i'm happy..
know why? know why?
cause i just quit piano.
heh. i didn't expect it either.
i was actually quite surprised at myself.
although i've thought of quitting a few times before through out the years, it never really appeared to me that i'd ever quit.
years back, it was mummy who told me "it's good for you"
so i continued learning.
sometimes it was good, but sometimes not.
then i changed teacher and had to learn EVERYTHING all over again from basics.
time passed then i wanted to quit again..
but mummy gave me the logic that in case you cannnot find a job next time, you can still stay home and teach piano..
so i continued learning for my future, for the "in case" part.
well then after that, she convinced me by telling me that though you may not want to teach next time, you can still play it for leisure.. there will sure be a use for it.
this was proven true when having a musical background gave me a head start at band.
but then, i quit band also because i realised that my passion wasn't there manx..
wasn't there at all.
and i'm really glad i did cause ben was just complaining to me about band being ultra busy.
yup yup.
well but anyway, after that, when i felt like dropping piano again, mum told me that it was really up to me already cause now, i seem to have a lot more going on than in the past.
but after thinking things throught, i'd just tell myself to try harder and improve, try to enjoy the lesson, cause it'll do you good.
for what reason i really didn't know.
then last night, i was grumbling about piano again..
yes and i confess that i've not touched the piano at all for the past ten days since my last lesson so i piaed after school today before heading for my cher's house.. not that it really helped but at least i knew a little of how the melody was like.. so i was half an hour late but i really didn't matter cause she'd prolly think that she told me 3.30 instead of 3 cause today's not my normal time slot.
so last night, mum told me that if really wanna quit then go ahead..
but i was too tired to think so i once again, told myself to continue trying to improve and enjoy the lessons..

now on to the juicy part.
the whole way to her house, i was thinking (not quite so hard) of whether or not to drop it.
my brains didn't really seem to work all that well.. was quite tired thanks to the flu. so i just prayed that if GOd wanted e to quit, then please give me a really obvious sign that i should drop it.
so i played my first book.. sucked.
then the second book..
"elizer, tell me.. did you count at home when you practised?"
*shook head*
-silence-
"well then i don't know how to teach you you know..yada yada.. *adds in a story or two here* every week you come and you HARDLY improve. you take MONTHS to finish one piece. in the end i just have to pass the piece with 70/80% of the notes correct otherwise it would take another FIVE months. if you don't find the time to practise ah, i really don't want to teach you anymore. i don't want to earn your money and in the end i get nothing in return. i have students taking o levels and a levels this year and they have time to practice. did you hear what rebecca said? her father doesn't allow her to stop for one month for her o levels because her father says that lessons are only 2/3 hours a week and it's all about time management. *continues on for about.. hmm.. ten minutes?*"
i keep still and quiet.. trying ever so hard to breath with my mouth closed cause i 've got a terrible block nose.
so i just open half of it.. lol.. the side which is not facing her..
yup.. back to the point.
as i listened, i thanked god for making it SO OBVIOUS.
really. there was no doubt in my mind on whether to continue or to drop.
she placed my exercise book on the piano.
i took it and left for the table to do my theory.
after i finished the 3rd qustion which took me say.. 20 min? yeah. i went to her to get it marked.
she marked it and explained my mistakes then told me to go home and correct them.
then she turned back to the piano where her other student was playing.
"er mdm loh.."
*she turns back to me*
*i stammer not sure of how to start*
"uh.. maybe i should.. stop."
i didn't really hear mostof what she said next cause i was dizzy from the white noise going on in side my head.. it was quite scary..
but she accepted it.. thati wanted to quit.
so i packed my bag and left lorr..
gonna get her a gift this weekend.. prolly write her a card too.
yup.
that was quite a long story eh?

today was a more interesting day compared to yesterday..
ms chan came to sit in for science class today!!!
the class was SURPRISINGLY QUIET!!!
i was really really happy and really really shocked that she came in.
wonder if it was because mrs rod told her that we didn't really learn well with ms Ding.
but that's besides thepoint.
ms chan answered a few questions and clarified a few things regarding the lesson too.
totally cool..
felt like crying la.. dunno why.. really really miss her a LOT. A WHOLE TERRIBLE LOT!
crazy rite? and oh yes, gwen followed me to look for miss chan on monday..
i asked her if she could give our class like supplementary classes before the exams..
she so rocks la ms chan..
but can't make it big cause it's not nice if ms ding hears about it.
ms ding's a permenant teacher you see..
that's why i wrote the notice on such a small peice of paper..
for the laggers.. the notice is on the 2c rox my sox board.
for the rest of you who read it.. seal your lips or i shall seal them for you.
*smiles*
there's nothing else i wanna type.
lots of food for thought but i'll keep that for myself to think before i sleep tonight.
bye ppl!
have a good night's rest!

*off to drink redoxon (and it's BLACKCURRENT! caleb says it's not nice but i can't taste it. so much for being happy that it's black current huh..)

i'm free!

hello once again!
haha.. such a cheery greeting rite?
that's cause i'm happy..
know why? know why?
cause i just quit piano.
heh. i didn't expect it either.
i was actually quite surprised at myself.
although i've thought of quitting a few times before through out the years, it never really appeared to me that i'd ever quit.
years back, it was mummy who told me "it's good for you"
so i continued learning.
sometimes it was good, but sometimes not.
then i changed teacher and had to learn EVERYTHING all over again from basics.
time passed then i wanted to quit again..
but mummy gave me the logic that in case you cannnot find a job next time, you can still stay home and teach piano..
so i continued learning for my future, for the "in case" part.
well then after that, she convinced me by telling me that though you may not want to teach next time, you can still play it for leisure.. there will sure be a use for it.
this was proven true when having a musical background gave me a head start at band.
but then, i quit band also because i realised that my passion wasn't there manx..
wasn't there at all.
and i'm really glad i did cause ben was just complaining to me about band being ultra busy.
yup yup.
well but anyway, after that, when i felt like dropping piano again, mum told me that it was really up to me already cause now, i seem to have a lot more going on than in the past.
but after thinking things throught, i'd just tell myself to try harder and improve, try to enjoy the lesson, cause it'll do you good.
for what reason i really didn't know.
then last night, i was grumbling about piano again..
yes and i confess that i've not touched the piano at all for the past ten days since my last lesson so i piaed after school today before heading for my cher's house.. not that it really helped but at least i knew a little of how the melody was like.. so i was half an hour late but i really didn't matter cause she'd prolly think that she told me 3.30 instead of 3 cause today's not my normal time slot.
so last night, mum told me that if really wanna quit then go ahead..
but i was too tired to think so i once again, told myself to continue trying to improve and enjoy the lessons..

now on to the juicy part.
the whole way to her house, i was thinking (not quite so hard) of whether or not to drop it.
my brains didn't really seem to work all that well.. was quite tired thanks to the flu. so i just prayed that if GOd wanted e to quit, then please give me a really obvious sign that i should drop it.
so i played my first book.. sucked.
then the second book..
"elizer, tell me.. did you count at home when you practised?"
*shook head*
-silence-
"well then i don't know how to teach you you know..yada yada.. *adds in a story or two here* every week you come and you HARDLY improve. you take MONTHS to finish one piece. in the end i just have to pass the piece with 70/80% of the notes correct otherwise it would take another FIVE months. if you don't find the time to practise ah, i really don't want to teach you anymore. i don't want to earn your money and in the end i get nothing in return. i have students taking o levels and a levels this year and they have time to practice. did you hear what rebecca said? her father doesn't allow her to stop for one month for her o levels because her father says that lessons are only 2/3 hours a week and it's all about time management. *continues on for about.. hmm.. ten minutes?*"
i keep still and quiet.. trying ever so hard to breath with my mouth closed cause i 've got a terrible block nose.
so i just open half of it.. lol.. the side which is not facing her..
yup.. back to the point.
as i listened, i thanked god for making it SO OBVIOUS.
really. there was no doubt in my mind on whether to continue or to drop.
she placed my exercise book on the piano.
i took it and left for the table to do my theory.
after i finished the 3rd qustion which took me say.. 20 min? yeah. i went to her to get it marked.
she marked it and explained my mistakes then told me to go home and correct them.
then she turned back to the piano where her other student was playing.
"er mdm loh.."
*she turns back to me*
*i stammer not sure of how to start*
"uh.. maybe i should.. stop."
i didn't really hear mostof what she said next cause i was dizzy from the white noise going on in side my head.. it was quite scary..
but she accepted it.. thati wanted to quit.
so i packed my bag and left lorr..
gonna get her a gift this weekend.. prolly write her a card too.
yup.
that was quite a long story eh?

today was a more interesting day compared to yesterday..
ms chan came to sit in for science class today!!!
the class was SURPRISINGLY QUIET!!!
i was really really happy and really really shocked that she came in.
wonder if it was because mrs rod told her that we didn't really learn well with ms Ding.
but that's besides thepoint.
ms chan answered a few questions and clarified a few things regarding the lesson too.
totally cool..
felt like crying la.. dunno why.. really really miss her a LOT. A WHOLE TERRIBLE LOT!
crazy rite? and oh yes, gwen followed me to look for miss chan on monday..
i asked her if she could give our class like supplementary classes before the exams..
she so rocks la ms chan..
but can't make it big cause it's not nice if ms ding hears about it.
ms ding's a permenant teacher you see..
that's why i wrote the notice on such a small peice of paper..
for the laggers.. the notice is on the 2c rox my sox board.
for the rest of you who read it.. seal your lips or i shall seal them for you.
*smiles*
there's nothing else i wanna type.
lots of food for thought but i'll keep that for myself to think before i sleep tonight.
bye ppl!
have a good night's rest!

*off to drink redoxon (and it's BLACKCURRENT! caleb says it's not nice but i can't taste it. so much for being happy that it's black current huh..)